Monday, March 16, 2015

I am accountable...

...and responsible for my actions and inactions.

Sadly, although I tried, not all of my areas of focus from last week got the attention they deserved.  That isn't to say that I did nothing all week...  I just didn't FOCUS where I intended to. Those areas were:

  1. Reclaim my sofa from the clean laundry mountain.
  2. Enforce the new reward charts I introduced to my children this weekend.
  3. Scrub that bathroom.
  4. Make a donation to the Op Shop.
  5. Keep the dining table a lovely space for family togetherness.l
  6. Declutter the front entrance of our home so it is nicer to come home to.
  7. Spend 4 hours in the games room this week, decluttering and sorting.
So... Again I confess...


No I will not confess a single thing.  The word confess implies negativity, ill doing, fault and shame. I will not place blame and burden upon myself when I KNOW i did nothing wrong...  I don't deserve that.  Be gentle on myself. I am doing my best here...

So... I will ASSESS my progress and ANALYSE my situation.  This is how I will grow from this situation. 

Progress Notes:
  1. My laundry-sofa is not so high and contains piles of folded, ready to put away items as well.
  2. We had a VERY successful week of charts. So much so that I have already made up new ones for this week. Plus our reward was taking the children out for a meal and an ice-cream to follow. It was not fancy, but it was a treat.
  3. Bathroom unchanged.
  4. I have a black plastic garbage bag with items in it that will be donated. Items that I placed in there whilst working on reducing my laundry-sofa mountain.
  5. The dining table is half clear. Our charts, school notes, a pile of baby blankets, fruit bowl and loaves of bread clutter the other end.
  6. I decluttered some items from our entranceway. A work in progress.
  7. I opened the door to the room once and removed a cane basket that I now store my Tiny Guy's toys in.  That is one less unused item that fills its walls. 
So the question that comes up next is, where did my focus go to? I certainly did not sit on my behind all week.
  • My kitchen is a little less cluttered. 
  • I put in a great deal of time to my husband's business doing things like making menus, shopping for stock, strategising, helping to keep him focused and general kitchen hand duties. 
  • Caring for the children.
  • Eliminating some junk from the back patio, making sure our rubbish bins will be filled to capacity this week.
  • Dealing with illness, my own and my children. We have change of season bugs.
  • Catching up with a friend.
As I write this blog post I am being overcome with observations about myself.  Not all of them are nice. 

Firstly, I will admit something.  I have hit delete several times and reworded things that I want to say because I am aware that the language I am choosing has negative connotations or directly devalues my efforts.  For example I wrote, "I decluttered some items from our entranceway. A work in progress." But my original point was written as, "I decluttered a little junk from the entrance. A job not complete."  It is only a small shift in language but by making a feature of "a job not complete" I infer my failure at the task I set. I did not fail. I made progress. No, I did not make as much progress as I would have liked but we stepped forward in the direction I want to head in.

I also note that in highlighting that I was sick and I spent time catching up with a friend, I felt guilt settle on me like a heavy blanket and that voice over my left shoulder was chastising me for not pushing myself harder while I felt bad, "suck it up princess," and "you don't deserve to enjoy time with friends."  How awful I am being to myself!  I am ENTITLED to down time and friendships!  Neither are a privilege and I don't have to earn them. 

I am also disheartened by what I have not written here.  My To-Do List is a rock I am carrying in the pit of my belly and what I "should" be doing is a ball and chain. What I know I need to accomplish but have not yet focused attention to is making me feel heavy, lethargic and crushed. Those pending tasks have no right to eat at me in this way! Other things, for right or wrong, took preference in my week. The important tasks on those lists will get done when they need to be done and what is unimportant will just fall to the wayside. And that is ok!  Be gentle upon myself.  My lists are just a TOOL for helping me stay on track. They are NOT a weapon for self flagellation!

There is a huge catch 22 in my peripheral vision.  I want to achieve some things, but they can not be achieved (can not, or I won't let them be - something more to consider) achieved until I do other things.  For example, I have some items I want to list and sell. I want to declutter them and I can use the money for other things!  Nothing wrong with that.  But, I am embarrassed by the state of my home and am concerned anyone coming to collect things will think poorly of me for weeds in the yard and a sofa filled with laundry. So instead of action, I sit with excess stuff around me that only IMPEDES the process of decluttering!  

Ever noticed that you get more done when you're happy and enjoying yourself?  When I think back about the week just gone the times I listened to a podcast or music were the times I achieved the most. My children help more when we are all happy too.  Yes, there is a "sweet spot" for productivity in anger. I know this to be true because I have experienced it. Turning negative energy into positive achieved is possible, but who really wants to approach anything with a gut-full of frustration and red hot rage?  Maybe the 7 Dwarfs had it right all along with their whistling and singing whilst getting the job done!

Last week I set the intention to blog daily but made no promises to comply with that intention. WHAT WAS THAT? Again... Burdening myself.  YES, accountability is awesome and it works. But it can have the negative effect of bestowing guilt and keeping that nasty little voice of ridicule on the left with plenty of ammunition to fire into my brain.  "See, you knew you couldn't blog daily even before you began! That's why you didn't promise! You knew you'd fail. You knew you wouldn't work miracles and have things shipshape. You knew you'd barely make a dent. You suck!"  Setting an intention is one thing. It is a good thing.  But not if it is oozing obligation for no GENUINE purpose!

I am not sure why but I have a resistance to time constraints that I, or others enforce.  When I hit a time frame I dig my heels in and cease activity. I don't know why, it just is how it is.  Something else for the future.

Finally, I realise I am more motivated when I look after myself and my things.  I cleared my sink of dirty dishes and placed a lit candle there.  The candle makes me smile. It emits a scent that pleases me. It celebrates a clear and clean space where once it was not.  As I put away folded towels on my linen shelf I straightened the piles and aligned them all.  It is something small, but I do enjoy symmetry and order. When I can manage that, I should celebrate it! It feels good!

So now I get to hit reset, knowing more today than I did yesterday. I get to make more plans, remembering to be kind to myself, and take action.  I will not forget to reward myself for my efforts either. Even the tiny ones!

Again, 7 things to focus on in the next 7 days.

  1. Eradicate the laundry-sofa from my living area.
  2. Continue with our good behaviour charting with the children.
  3. Make all of the dining table useful for family fun and togetherness.
  4. Continue creating a useful and attractive entrance to my home.
  5. Make 3 'social' calls that I have not allowed myself time to make (because I was telling myself they were not the "best" use of my time and I haven't "earned" the right to make them.
  6. Vacuum my living areas.
  7. Clean my bathroom.
NOTE: Much of this list is focused in my lounge/dining area. This is good. This will not only maximise progress, perpetuation motivation and self esteem, it will allow me to release myself from the bonds of "what will people think?" if they come to my home and see the chaos! 

Already I feel the tug of what didn't make this list.  The "shoulds" and other equally important or desirable goals are heckling me.  But that is not fair.  I need a place to begin and this is where I am choosing to start. An area of my home that benefits my whole family AND my friends and visitors! I will not apologise to the other parts of my home that crave my attention. I will get to them in due course!

I feel crazy writing in this way... Addressing my random, negative thought patterns as I write.  But they obviously need to be addressed.  They have kept me hostage too long and I NEED TO BE RELEASED!

Monday, March 9, 2015

My Blog, My Confessional

My life is a hodgepodge, mishmash, smoothed-up, ramshackle, abomination of what I want it to be.

There!  It's out there... I said it.

Nothing is "perfect" and I don't expect that.  But I would like a whole lot more organisation, peace, calm, productivity and fun than I'm currently experiencing!!!  I'm over being frustrated, zoned out to the chaos or too scared and overwhelmed to exit my bed.

Shit has to change!

And it will! Starting here and now.  I figured STEP 1 was to CONFESS that there is a problem. DONE - CHECK!

Next... Ugh, equally hard to do but... STEP 2 - ADMIT to how big this problem is right now.  So, here's the list...

  • My clean laundry pile has eaten my 3 seater sofa! (Although - in my defence, my dirty washing  consists of one load of darks, 2 cleaning cloths that are awaiting companions for a load of their own, and my daughter's wet blanket and mattress protector that she just did about 10 minutes ago. There is one load of whites washed and ready to hang as soon as I bring in the load of dry load hanging out there!)
  • My house is a sty!  Kids rooms are messy, my room is messy, my lounge is a laundromat, the bathroom could use a good scrub, the kitchen is cluttered... sigh!
  • The back patio looks like Steptoe and Son moved in even though we only just put a ton of crap out for collection two weeks ago.
  • My computer files are disorganised and so are my inboxes. I have 7 inboxes (WOW - only just counted them up!) not including Facebook and they are all loaded!  Digital photos are desperately in need of sorting! So many documents are redundant and need the trashcan.
  • Our home internet is sick and I just don't want to deal with getting it fixed.
  • There is a to-do list a mile long for things we need to do for my husband's business.
  • My kids behaviour has been pretty shoddy lately and sibling rivalry does not help matters!
  • Paperwork just won't stop breeding! 
  • Finances are stretched.
  • My games room is the dumping ground for EVERYTING and it is unusable.
There are probably more things to say but that's a snapshot of the situation.

Bad huh?

STEP 3 - KNOW WHY (So we can avoid that pitfall in the future).  It began a while ago... I don't want to think how long.  The number is not important.  I was depressed and instead of dealing with stuff, I stuffed the stuff in boxes and hid it in the games room.  Then I didn't bother stuffing it into boxes anymore. I just stuffed it anywhere I could stuff it.  And boy have I stuffed it!

Then as I moved past my depression and my husband experienced depression while I just paddled against the tide. Then, I had another turn...  It was a big long dark tunnel for us.  

Add in 4 kids in 10 years and all their things... Some that my sentimental bone will not let me part with!

Last year, with my surprise pregnancy for my 40th year, I found myself exhausted for the first trimester.  I could not keep my eyes open at all.  So beyond the bare minimums, I didn't try.  I followed my body's lead and I slept away 3 whole months.  Then in second trimester I was like the Energiser Bunny!  So much energy but so much to do!  With no specific plan of attack, like a bunny, I just nibbled at a lot of edges and made no real impact.  

Then at 30 weeks, as I moved into the third trimester, my blood pressure went up! Monitoring began weekly then twice weekly then every 2 days. I was advised to rest and even when I was active I was uncomfortable. My feet were enormous, I felt heavy and drained.  It was at this point that I took my 'bare essentials' down to nothing more than washing dishes, washing clothes and resting.  Besides doing what I had to do to help with the children, that was all I could muster. 

My dear sweet little Tiny Guy arrived early at 34 weeks. And still NOTHING beyond childcare, dishes and laundry being washed got done because we spent most of our time at the hospital with him or driving to and from the hospital.  He came home from the nursery at almost 38 weeks.  It was a long, long month.

But then, everyone knows you get nothing done with a newborn in the house!

You also don't get much done with a new business in the family!

So onto STEP 4 - WHY CHANGE? You have to know what you are aiming at!

My Tiny Guy is 6 months old and STARTING TO ROLL!!! I am terrified!  Soon, very very very soon, this little man is going to be learning to crawl! Then walking! Then running!  And if he is anything like my other two boys, he will be CLIMBING!  We are not ready to have a crawling baby in the house, let alone any other kind of mobile infant!  Too much clutter.  Way too many tiny toys. Too many hazards!

So, we need to get this SHITWRECK of a house back under control!

I have other driving forces too.

My two oldest boys really need their own spaces.  Right now they share and they aren't doing it well.  There are lots of fights and as they grow, the space is becoming tighter and tighter.  It was fun, but it isn't fair now. Time to give them separate rooms.  But for that, I need to MAKE ROOM!

Another reason... Last week, whilst in a "you rock Mama! You can do anything" mindset, I signed up to complete my studies... GULP!  I felt confident at being able to manage it at the time!  But now...not so much. :-(  That self doubt is sitting on my left shoulder taunting me with things like, "who do you think you are?", "you're going to bomb out like before!", "How selfish are you? You know that you aren't meeting everyone's needs now, so why are you taking on another load?" and "You just aren't good at anything so why bother?"

If I can get my shit together, help my family to get theirs together too, I KNOW we can do everything we want to do and need to do, and make it work.  I know we can do MORE! I know it...  I want it!

But right now, I am facing facts. We are starting at the bottom of the hill...  We really are!

Ok... I've confessed, admitted the enormity of the problem and identified how I got here and isolated some of the reasons why I want things to change.  Getting closer to the scariest part of all... But first, STEP 5 - MAKE A PLAN!

My plan includes this blog.  This confession is the first post in my accountability to getting this done. I don't care if anyone ever reads it.  In some ways I hope no one does because then, even though I made this confession public, it will just go unnoticed.  But if someone does, I hope it helps you in some way.

SIDE ISSUE: I want to post photos. But I do not dare!  Maybe I will be ok with Before and Afters, but no promises.   I will take them, but maybe not post just yet.  We will take it as it comes.

Even thinking about a plan sends me into overwhelm.  My tummy is churning and I want to go to bed to just avoid it.  But that tactic works all too well.  That is why I am here now!  I need to feel this discomfort, sit with it and move through it into the realm of ACTION!  I will go gentle on myself.  Life has been hard, that is why I am here.  That nastiness on my shoulder is being hard enough on me. I do not need to make fuel it with more power than it already possesses.  So, my plan, just for today, is to take action on 7 things in 7 days.

Sound fair?  I think so... I hope so!  I want it to be manageable! I want it to work.  

I need it to work!

My 7 things will be:
  1. Reclaim my sofa from the clean laundry mountain.
  2. Enforce the new reward charts I introduced to my children this weekend.
  3. Scrub that bathroom.
  4. Make a donation to the Op Shop.
  5. Keep the dining table a lovely space for family togetherness! (Maybe the kids will get along better after a little while of this?  We can but hope! My hair hurts from pulling at it in frustration over them bickering!)
  6. Declutter the front entrance of our home so it is nicer to come home to.
  7. Spend 4 hours in the games room this week.   That's only half an hour a day for 6 days. It is more than I have done up until now!  It has to help!
That seems manageable enough doesn't it?

Anything else that happens, if it does is icing!

Good!  So glad you agree!

So... Onward and upward.  :-)  The only place to go is up after all!

My intention at this point is to blog each day to stay accountable and document my progress.  But no promises.  I'm being gentle upon myself and I don't need the pressure.  But I will post again on this issue, that is for sure.  

Thursday, January 8, 2015

My Jar of Happy

You know that saying, "I wish I could bottle it?"  When something is so good we want to preserve it forever or just save it for another day? Well I think I have discovered a way to do just that!

I do not always find time to journal even though I find it very therapeutic. I also find that with my busy household, my memory isn't always so great.  Then, to top off the trifecta, I am often just too tired or lazy to write.  I put it off until after a nap or in the morning, promising myself I will get up and just do it before everyone wakes up and keeps me distracted.

So my desire to write, to record my memories and take conscious inventory of all I have to be grateful for, can often go unmet.  That makes me sad. It frustrates me. It gives me the "shoulds" and we all know that should is a very dirty word that implies so much negativity.

But my new beautiful Jar of Happy is perfect.

She sits there on my shelf, open wide to accept notes of love, gratitude and beautiful memories that are as simple as jottings on a piece of notepad. the back of an envelope or old receipt.  It isn't about how pretty the note is. It is perfect the more imperfect it is because it is from the heart and in the jar.

On dimly lit days of the heart, or when I want to stroll back in time and smile, all I ned do is reach in and take out a small selection of nots and sit back and read. And that just makes my heart sing so loudly!

I also think that it will be a beautiful lesson for my babies.

My oldest son (9) forgets quite quickly that he had fun.  He will be laughing one moment then lamenting the "worst day ever" the next.  I do not want this to become habit for him.  I know it is just a phase.  But i hope that I can encourage him to write his gratitudes, smiles, laughs and joys down and have a tangible place to see and feel and access them rather than leaving it just to sink the bottom of his memory.

I want this jar filled to overflowing.  I want it to be testimony to my life anyhow wonderful it is.

This is not a new idea by any means.  It has and is practiced by many people. Just google and you will find many and varied hits about a vessel to keep your happy or your gratefulness.  This idea is simply new to me and I'm taking it and running with it because I think it will suit my mad, chaotic, hectic and curve-balled life perfectly!

So long as that curve-ball isn't one that I have instructed endlessly, not to throw in the house!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

100 Things to do This Year!

I absolutely love Leonie Dawson's Amazing Biz and Life Academy. She has so much good stuff to share to get you all revved up and ready to spread your wings and do what you want to do with your life - rather than just sit and think about it.

My most favourite tool she offers are the workbooks!
There is one for LIFE and one for BUSINESS and they take you through a bunch of (mostly fun) exercises to get you thinking and focused on what you want to achieve and how you want to achieve it!  I say mostly fun because some are actually quite thought provoking and pose a bit of a challenge. But a challenge is good for us all every now and then. It stretches your limits and moves you into new spaces!  I love it!

My all time FAVOURITE activity in the LIFE WORKBOOK is to list 100 things you want to do in the year.  I love it that much I kinda went a little crazy last year and came up with 156 things!!!

As it turned out however, an new little light wanted to be a part of this world and chose me as his mama. So while I couldn't be more thrilled about that, I must admit, he did derail many of my 2014 plans.  I was either too sick or tired to follow my dreams, or I was just too busy managing other things to keep up with them.

That's why I only blogged ONCE last year...  And I didn't even realise it until now!  OOPS!
I was a little distracted!

So distracted that I only fulfilled 13 of my gigantic list!

  1. I managed 7 days of a photo challenge (GO ME!)
  2. I purchased new underwear (Nursing bras and stretchy belly knickers)
  3. I bought a jewellery hanger
  4. We made play dough once - no glitter though...
  5. Went swimming
  6. I have begun losing weight
  7. I helped my husband start a business from home (that's almost like doing it for myself!)
  8. Signed up to be an organ donor!
  9. Created a dream board
  10. Became more thoughtful about gratitude and the universe.
  11. Got my glasses fixed
  12. Bought a pair of jeans but they need altering!
  13. I raised $250 for the MS foundation but did not climb the tower.

Not an overwhelmingly long list checked off there! Oh well...

I can fix that this year though!  Now that 2015 is here and my tiny guy is growing like a weed!  I am excited to jump on in and make stuff happen in my life again!

So, to that end, I present my 100 things list! (That may number more then 100!)

  1. Participate and raise money for the Red Dress Dash!
  2. Participate in and raise $2000 for Step Up For MS Stair Climb and do it in under 20 minutes!
  3. Watch 6 movies this year!
  4. Walk 50km in a week
  5. Read 26 books this year
  6. Watch the House series
  7. Take part in a photo a day challenge
  8. Take part in a writing challenge
  9. Sing in public and bust my fear
  10. Learn to crochet and make something!
  11. Learn enough Dutch to carry a conversation
  12. Do a self defence course
  13. Take part in a short course or workshop a term
  14. Take advantage of the Amazing Biz and Life Academy resources
  15. Restring and play guitar
  16. Go on a horse ride
  17. Knit something
  18. Blog more
  19. Try making a vlog
  20. Restore my old desk
  21. Fix the giraffe pot stand
  22. Write my children's book
  23. Scrapbook 52 pages
  24. Journal
  25. Draw more - even if it is doodling
  26. Research book idea
  27. Take the kids out to a restaurant meal
  28. Send snail mail!
  29. Try Zumba
  30. Go on a camel ride
  31. Go to lunch once a term with friends
  32. Go out for drinks and dancing
  33. Get a manicure, pedicure and a massage
  34. Have sexy photos taken
  35. Spend quiet time with my bunnies
  36. Eat outdoors
  37. Go for a long bike ride
  38. Buy a belly dance costume
  39. Try burlesque
  40. Buy a corset!
  41. Buy a red dress 
  42. Acquire some kick-ass boots
  43. Update my wardrobe and accessorise more
  44. Find creative ways to store things I love
  45. Tame my digital photo collection
  46. Create a beautiful corner in the garden to sit and think
  47. Sit and think more
  48. Learn to use routines
  49. Have updated address and birthday books
  50. Send birthday cards!
  51. Convert my old home movies to DVD
  52. Plan Christmas in advance!
  53. Wake up to a clean and tidy home just once!
  54. Find a space to call my creative home
  55. Finish the flowers for Celeste's walls
  56. Give the boys their own rooms
  57. Give Ethan a cute nursery
  58. Fill my kids lunch boxes with healthy love!
  59. Play more! Laugh more!
  60. Focus on making my ritual days work!
  61. Play board games and jigsaws all day in winter in front of the heater
  62. Play hide and seek
  63. Invent a character and make stories up
  64. Have a movie night on the floor in a "family bed"
  65. Make glittery play dough
  66. Put love notes in lunch boxes
  67. Take a family trip to somewhere new
  68. Go ice skating
  69. Release "I love you"
  70. Go to the cinema in my PJ's with the kids
  71. Take the kids bowling
  72. Go ice skating
  73. Go to Esperance to visit the family
  74. Do craft projects together - footprint butterflies
  75. Visit AQWA
  76. Visit penguin island
  77. Take the kids to the beach
  78. Record ourselves singing songs we love
  79. Blow bubbles more
  80. Go on a picnic with our teddies
  81. Renovate the cubby house
  82. Spend the night in the cubby
  83. Host a kids dance party!
  84. Give the kids a birthday party each this year!
  85. Toast marshmallows and tell spooky stories by the fire
  86. Volunteer at school
  87. Take Ethan to play group
  88. Learn to do the splits!
  89. Drink tea
  90. Drink more water
  91. Juice and green smoothies!
  92. Run 5km
  93. Take care of my skin
  94. Grow something edible
  95. Make terrariums with the kids
  96. Get a pap-smear done... (Live the dream baby!)
  97. Practice tonglen 
  98. Do yoga more
  99. Wear jeans
  100. Save $1000 for no real reason
  101. Save $1 coins
  102. Make a living for myself
  103. Start a home based business
  104. Publish something
  105. Pay something off
  106. Make decisions about my education!
  107. Get paid for something I write
  108. Make a $20 backpack for the homeless to give away
  109. Sell some Nutrimetics instead of being the worst salesperson eva!
  110. Buy something lovely for myself!
  111. Send a "just because" gift to someone special
  112. Donate blood
  113. Keep chalk in my bag and write love notes to the world
  114. Pay a total stranger a compliment
  115. Buy lunch for someone who needs it
  116. Smile at strangers in the street
  117. Keep a happiness jar
  118. Have a bowl of pretty crystals - healing crystals
  119. Help make my husbands food business, Nicely Spiced a reality that allows him to give up his day job!
  120. Burn more candles or incense
  121. Hang windchimes
  122. Paint my nails more
  123. Make new friends & renew old friendships (Always)
  124. Journal my romances
  125. Create a dream board
  126. Write my bucket list
  127. Write my travel bucket list
  128. Research, plan and start saving for a BIG TRIP
  129. Focus on becoming more intuitive
  130. Celebrate my 40th birthday when I turn 41!
  131. Play more podcasts
  132. Make my last wishes known
  133. Expand my music listening horizons
  134. Write my baby's birth stories
  135. Wear perfume
  136. Visit my tree
  137. Take myself out to lunch
  138. Learn to let go of things I don't need anymore
  139. Learn to use chopsticks
  140. Give up doing laundry
  141. Have family photos taken
  142. Learn a bit of coding
  143. Create things and release them into the world
HA... number 140 is a dream I will never realise with 4 kids LOL But I can do my best with the rest!

I am going to print up this list this year and post it somewhere I can easily see it.  Maybe even keep a copy on my phone for quick reference. This year I'm gonna shine!

2014... Surprisingly Good

With only half an hour left of 2014 I am looking back to see what this year held for me.  Boy... What a shock!

It has almost been a YEAR since I blogged!!!  WHAT THE? How on Earth did that time lapse so fast?

Well... Here's how... My year in a nutshell!

  • I discovered that being a mother means MY NEW YEAR really doesn't begin until February when the kids go back to school!
  • My little girl began kindergarten! While my big boys were in Grades 2 & 3!
  • I wondered why I was so tired in February and the answer was positive while I went into shock!

  • My husband started a food vending business...

 Nicely Spiced
  • ...and we bought a food van to start renovating! She's almost done!

  • We welcomed pets into our home. And sadly lost some too.

  • I turned 40 years old.
  • My Daisybug needed glasses!

  • My son Mitchell got to play basketball with the WILDCATS!

  • I lost a work colleague and two school friends this year. They all affected me deeply in very different ways. I learned a lot.  A dear friend lost her mother too. Again... I have and am learning so much through her loss.
  • I had my baby at 34 weeks gestation. 6 weeks early. We named him Ethan Trevor and he is thriving now after a very tiny start to life. He is my heart's joy!



  • My kids did great at the school sports carnival!


  • My Ashie Splash had his tonsils out!

  • My husband met Peppa Pig and her little brother George!

It's funny. I was thinking that besides the birth of my son Ethan and the birth of the business, 2014 was pretty empty and void of highlights. In fact I was mentally counting the losses and hardships it had brought. But it really wasn't all toil and trouble. There were so many lessons.  But there really was so much to celebrate too.

The year didn't turn out at all how I anticipated that it would. But it served me the most beautiful curve ball I could imagine and I am so grateful.

Now, I get to release 2014 and look into 2015 and dive in! I am so excited!!!

I hope that 2014 was kind to you and that no matter what, 2015 brings you incredible opportunities for joy.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Amazing plans for 2014!

One of my favourite activities to do from Leonie Dawson's Amazing Biz and Life Workbooks is to write a list of 100 things to do this year...

I just love it...

Last year's list can be seen HERE.  I only managed to fulfil 21 of the things I set out to do but really, I don't think that effort was half bad!

I achieved the following:

  1. Climbed 1103 stairs in the Step up for MS challenge
  2. Raised $1145 dollars for the MS Society of WA
  3. Tried yoga and fell in love
  4. Visited my friend Coralie at Rainbow Farm and had family photographs taken
  5. Visited my Nana
  6. Told my Nana I loved her
  7. Fell in love with belly dancing
  8. Bought myself a bicycle
  9. Dyed my hair black, purple and pink
  10. Started using FaceTime to make video calls 
  11. Bought new pillows (but need new ones again - they weren't so great! LOL)
  12. Expanded my music library a little
  13. Started drawing and shared my work with a couple of people
  14. Completed my training at Lifeline and am now a Telephone Crisis Supporter
  15. Started a public blog
  16. Consciously asserted myself
  17. Volunteered at the kids school a little
  18. Went swimming with the kids
  19. Got dressed up and went for drinks with the girls twice
  20. Tried my first green smoothie... Not as offensive as it looked!
  21. Got my tooth fixed

What I didn't achieve last year, I either rolled into this year's list or scrapped altogether.  My theory is that some weren't getting done because they just don't light me up now.

But I love this exercise that much that I kinda went a little overboard.  I have more than 100 and I categorised them so they are easier to find and mark off when I achieve them!

So... I give you... MY LIST FOR 2014!

1.           Step up for MS Challenge – Climb Central Park Tower again in less than 20 minutes!
2.           Raise $3000 for the Step up for MS Challenge. ($250 so far!)
3.           Watch 6 movies.
4.           Walk 50 km in a week!
5.           Read 12 books.
6.           Watch the House series!
7.           Partake in a photo challenge.
8.           Take part in a writing challenge.
9.           Sing in public and get over a fear!
Things to Learn
10.       Learn to crochet.
11.       Do a self defence course.
12.       Learn enough Dutch to hold a conversation.
13.       Attend workshops and courses that interest me.
14.       Horse riding lessons
15.       Dig deep into what the Amazing Biz and Life Academy has to offer!
16.       Restring and play my guitar.
17.       Knit something!
18.       Blog regularly!
19.       Restore an old piece of furniture
20.       Write my children’s book
21.       Scrapbook!
22.       Journal
23.       Draw!
24.       Cover my rocking chair
25.       Sew fleecy pj bottoms for the kids!
26.       Restore my giraffe pot stand!
27.       Research my book
Things to Do!
28.       Send snail mail!
29.       Try Zumba
30.       Ride a camel
31.       Spend a day in Kings Park alone
32.       Go to lunch with friends more often
33.       Dress up and go out for drinks and dancing!
34.       Get a manicure and pedicure!
35.       Have sexy photos taken
36.       Take a solo trip to somewhere new!
37.       Try another form of dancing
38.       Spend time with my bunnies
39.       Eat outdoors
40.       Go to the cinema alone to watch a movie that makes me cry!
41.       Spend a day at the zoo alone
42.       Go for a long bike ride!
Things to Buy
43.       Get a belly dance costume
44.       New underwear
45.       Buy a corset!
46.       A red dress
47.       Kickass boots!
48.       Panniers for my bike
Home & Organizing
49.       Find creative storage solutions!
50.       Store my digital photos
51.       Create a corner in the garden just for me
52.       Keep the kitchenette clear of junk!
53.       Have a bathroom again!
54.       Work on routines to make life smoother
55.       Update my address and birthday books
56.       Convert old movies to DVD – relive the memories!
57.       Have an organised Christmas I enjoy!
58.       Decrapify my home – bless others with my excess!
59.       Let go of the baby stuff
60.       Create a ‘creative haven’ for myself
61.       Decorate Celeste’s room
62.       Make a jewellery hanger
63.       Spend time making things pretty
Family and kids
64.       Bake and make interesting lunches for my children
65.       Spend more time playing!
66.       Make icecream sundaes
67.       Do jigsaw puzzles and play board games on a rainy afternoon
68.       Play hide and seek!
69.       Make glittery play dough
70.       Invent a character and make up stories
71.       Play practical jokes
72.       Take a family trip to somewhere new
73.       Go ice skating
74.       Say “I love you” more!
75.       Go to the movies in my PJ’s with the kids
76.       Go bowling
77.       Visit AQWA
78.       Go to Esperance to visit Nanna
79.       Do craft projects together
80.       Go to penguin island!
81.       Record us singing songs we love
82.       Foot print butterflies
83.       Blow bubbles!
84.       Go and feed the ducks
85.       A family dinner somewhere new
86.       Go on a picnic
87.       Renovate and redecorate the cubby house
88.       Sleep in the cubby one night
89.       Toast marshmallows and tell spooky stories by a fire
90.       Go to the beach!
91.       Volunteer at scouts
For my health and fitness
92.       Join the gym
93.       Learn to do the splits
94.       Give up cola
95.       Drink tea
96.       Drink water
97.       Get a massage
98.       Run 5kms
99.       Take care of my skin
100.        Grow food!
101.        Green juices!
102.        Go swimming
103.        Get a pap smear – living the dream!
104.        Create a meditation practice
105.        Create a yoga practice
106.        Give up resistance to taking my medicine
107.        Reach a comfortable weight.
Money and Career
108.        I want minions!
109.        Earn Money
110.        Sell on ebay ($10 made so far!)
111.        Save my $2 coins
112.        A regular Lifeline shift
113.        Start a business from home
114.        Make something worth selling
115.        Publish my book!
116.        Pay something off!
117.        Make decisions about my future study!
118.        Write something I get paid for!
119.        Make money from Nutrimetics
120.        Pursue speaking engagements
121.        Release my fear of money
Feel Goods
122.       Become an organ donor
123.       Send a “just because” gift to someone special
124.       Donate blood
125.       Volunteer at school
126.       Keep chalk in my bag and write love notes to the world
127.       Pay a total stranger a compliment
128.       Practice tonglen
129.       Buy lunch for someone who needs it
130.       Smile at strangers in the street
Just for me!
131.       Sit alone in the sun and think
132.       Sit alone in the star light and think
133.       Wear jeans!
134.       Have a bowl of pretty crystals - healing crystals
135.       Burn more candles or incense
136.       Hang windchimes
137.       Paint my nails more
138.       Make new friends & renew old friendships (Already underway!)
139.       Journal my romances
140.       Create a dream board  DONE!!! Upcoming blog post!
141.       Write a bucket list
142.       Write a travel bucket list or blog for my travel dreams!
143.       Become more assertive! Keep growing those gonads!
144.       Expand my intuition
145.       Celebrate my 40th birthday
146.       Listen to more podcasts
147.       Be more grateful!
148.       Make my last wishes known
149.       Listen to the radio – stop being such a mushroom to the world
150.       Deepen my relationships
151.       Write my baby’s birth stories
152.       Spend days being crafty – to hell with what I “should” be doing!
153.       Expand my music library
154.       Get my glasses fixed

155.       Wear perfume
156.    Visit my tree

Here's to checking a lot more off this list this year!  I'm so keen!